I am 20 now, posted a few times in this column, and i'm currently debating many things. I like to think that i am WAYY more feminine than I am masculine, and feel very out of place in masculine situations like football (i can participate as a joke you know,) or wearing tuxedos or masculine clothing (like polos....ICK.) I have always liked softer more feminine looking things, like for example I have some harajuku lovers feminine hoodie wear it all the time and i love it! but most people think i'm way abnormal. but it's not their decision to decide. most of my life like when i was a kid i always thought i was born a girl and somehow wasn't anymore. now i'm confused. as hell. sometimes i wonder if i am transgender, and i think no matter how strong i am on that conclusion society has a manipulative eye that wraps itself around me and constantly nags at my shoulder telling me it's wrong. n omatter how decided i am. my question to you is, have you gone throuh this experience? i'm so confused. i hate my hair. i want women's hair. no more body hair. smooth legs. feminine features. and...my hands are smaller than some girl's hands i know--delicate looking, long thin fingres, and my jaw is def. feimine. not chizzled, (sp), and just looks girly. sooo?>